newest plan

well, i've decided to wait to move the house. for now i am just going to move the nursery. it will be nice to get it closer to the home and easier to deal with then. i can't wait. hopefully that will be done by the end of september. i only have 'till october where the nursery is now. so in the process of tear down and fix up! things are going great and it looks like things will flourish for the rest of the year. i have michelle to help now and things look like they'll do nothing but get better. i figure one more year here then i can buy a house. i can't wait. i found this perfect little number right in the heart of carlsbad. i'm not sure it will be available when i want to buy but it's exactly what i'm looking for. it was built in 1976, very spacious floor plan, totally open. has a backyard and a staircase to the beach. how awesome!! i really hope to find one similar when i'm are ready to buy. you never know that one may be available, it has been up for sale for over a year now and with the real estate here at a stand still we may get lucky. i already have plans to rip up the bathroom and build my own japanese wet room, with my own style of course. i'm also planning to place a koi pond in the middle of the house and have it connect to one outside! i'll need your help for that one, noel! i can't wait!! =^..^=

not enough time

i've got three commissions to finish. just have to place the finishing touches on the lily and started the orchid last night. it looks alright! :} the flamingos are coming along slowly. i can't seem to find an hour or so to get some serious work done on them. my mom saw the layout though and she totally loves it. they will be breaking ground on their add-on next week or so, we're going to have a bbq for it. wish you were here! i want to work on kristi's painting too. i can't seem to find the right layout for it, let alone decide on exactly what i want to do for her. she hasn't commissioned it but i thought it would be a lovely gift for her. i really want to send something to ames but i can't put my finger on what i want to send her either. maybe it will come to me soon. hee-hee. anyhow, i'll post the orchid and lily once i finish them! oh! almost forgot, i'm getting a sewing machine next week! i'm so excited. i already have patterns cut out for the hanbok hoodie and some dresses for me and the girls. even working on arm warmer patterns for this fall/winter!! so excited! if you're interested let me know. i'll be making a ton of arm warmers in hopes of selling them but i'll send you some to try out!! :} i'll post my shirt designs too so you can check them out. if you're interested just email me with a size you prefer. i'll also be doing children's clothing too!! check back soon. =^..^=

just do it...

i did. finally. after waiting for the release of my favorite mag i went ahead and subscribed. it took me a few years to do it but i figured i'd probably save some money. i want to buy some new manga but i took the girls shopping and bought them some clothes instead. i guess that's a good mommy but...i want manga!! *pout* maybe soon...i'll count the days. i figure i could go through my boxes and see which volumes i need for which series and then make my list, maybe i will save some green that way too. instead of just blindly buying whatever suits my fancy at the moment! i really should finish the ones i've started! on most of them i've only got one volume left to get. i don't want them to end so i guess that is my way of extending them. *le sigh =^..^=

poison

jim has food poisoning. so my phones have been quiet and i've been chasing the girls around. it's a mild case so he isn't as bad as he could be. i just feel bad for him. it totally sucks. i got food poisoning once and was down for two weeks or more. it was coming out of both ends for me. fortunately for him he only threw up the first day and has just felt crappy ever since. but he's a trouper!=^..^=

the 22

if you haven't seen it lately, they've really done a bang up job on it. it looks pretty good and it's much wider. they sectioned off the 5 and 57 so the 22 runs a lot clearer. we were driving home last night and since jim was driving i was looking out the window in one of those rare instances when the girls are complacent. i couldn't help but drift back into my younger days. when amy and i used to fly up and down that freeway making our mark on orange county and the like. hauling down the 55 to get our morning coffee and game of pool instead of first period. ripping up the 22 to get to dr. disney at the courtesy of mr. davis. then as i got older and amy left me (hee-hee), smoking my car out blazing a trail to ventura for many nights creating hazy memories of parties, people, and sun rises. making my way to capistrano to visit my family's sacred land, to dance under the moon with my howling cousins. making my way to san francisco and seattle, running high on adrenaline, passing the sleepless nights on the road. those were the days. driving was a favorite past time for me....maybe we can revisit that when you return to me!! *lol* =^..^=

hospitals.....hmmm

so yesterday i was calling the hospital like crazy trying to find my papa. i finally got a hold of my aunt since the hospital seemed to have no idea what i was talking about. well i guess the story of yesterday is that my pop went to the doctor around 9a. the doctor wanted him admitted immediately. so pop and grandma lulu went to chapman medical. (gramma died at st. joe's so pop doesn't want to go there) so they get to the hospital and checked in. well he was completely ignored, no i.v., no meds, no bed. he finally got a bed at 2p and meds at 5p. they didn't even give him something to eat until around 6p. dr. wolf (my whole family goes to the same dr.) was pissed off. he was not very nice to the staff, he asked them who was to blame, he was livid. you see he sent all the paperwork and what he wanted for my papa at 10a that morning and he couldn't understand why a sick man wasn't in a bed with the meds dr. wolf wanted in him. i don't blame him. when i found out he was sitting in the waiting room all day, no oxygen, nothing, i was pissed myself. ready to go and break some balls. the kicker for me is grandma lulu's cancer is back and with pop being so fragile right now i can't go see him. mihi just got her yearly boosters and her chicken pox vac so she is sort of reacting which means i have to stay away from pop and grandma lulu. it makes me want to rip my hair out. what if he dies? i know *phtuy phtuy* but i can't help being scared. you see my family is very accepting of death. it's just a means to an end. we understand it's need to live. so if he does go, it will be okay. we will mourn and grieve but there will be no hindering nature here. of course we'll want to try to save him as much as possible but no sense in pushing when you've been beat. i know his dr. is fab and he has the spirit of a warrior of the tribe so he should fair just fine out of this. i just love him so much that i don't want to see him hurting. =^..^=

an unwanted rerun

damn. when i was 18 my grandmother, who practically raised me, died suddenly. she had walking pneumonia. well she wasn't feeling well and was admitted into the hospital. almost immediately she was placed in a medically induced coma. they couldn't stop the infection from spreading and she died after two weeks from septic shock. today i get the call right after i wake up and learn that my grandfather has now been checked into the hospital with pneumonia. i'm scared. i don't want to go through this again even though i know he can't live forever. but he's too young. i'm afraid he's going to go as fast as grandma. i'm going there later today to see him. =^..^=