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18.6.07

flamingos



so i'm FINALLY working on my mom's painting. i finished the palm trees for her now i'm starting the flamingos. she has been asking for this painting since high school and now that her bathroom is finished i'm starting it. if you haven't been to my parents house in awhile, they are totally remodeling. what was the t.v. room (across from my old room) is now the dining room, the wall between it and the living room is gone too. the back room is the studio soon to be new add on for my parents. the plans are being approved and work should start within the next month or so, but i digress. the flamingos are laid out and ready to be slapped with a few coats of acrylic. i was thinking of using oil but if she is going to hang it in the bathroom that wouldn't be too good. anyhow, here's the palm trees. i'll post the flamingos when they are done! =^..^=

15.6.07

biggest on earth

i'm the biggest nerd on earth. so dorky and strange. i don't think i'm very like-able. i wonder why my friends are my friends. i know i shouldn't be so down on myself but sometimes i wonder if my friends still talk to me out of pity. i mean a.m.y is super cool and kristi rocks. jess-cat is a goof but she is still fun. tristan is great and witty but i think he just comes over to get bags. i dunno. i suck. =^..^=

charity makes you miss calls

i know i can talk to you almost anytime i want to. i know i should shrug it off when i miss your calls. but sometimes i want to talk to you about everything and nothing so badly that i upset myself when i miss your call. i noticed you called. i tried to get home in time. but i missed it and when i did get home things got kinda crazy and i couldn't call you back quite in time to really talk. so my volunteer work over, my kids calmed down i finally have the moments i need and i'm sure i've missed our window of allowed conversation. smack it up! (that's what sage says now when she gets mad!! it's hilarious!!) so hopefully we can try to talk again some other time. if i want to talk to you i guess i should tell the hospital they'll be shorty one volunteer once in awhile!! har har! =^..^=

14.6.07

old loves die hard

as of late i keep dreaming of my old love.. he could do no wrong. everything was perfect in our relationship, our communication, our partying, our love and desire for one another. we talked everything over and i completely gave myself to him, which is extremely rare for me to do. he had to move to be with his father, which i was completely understanding of and supported. he wanted me to move with him but i couldn't at the time. i told him i would try later. i also suggested breaking up but he didn't want to. he broke up with me shortly after my birthday one year, just when i was going to tell him i was going to move out where he was. i was devastated, and those of you who know me well, he got the worst of my emotions. i let him know exactly how he was ripping my heart and soul from me, and how it sounded as well. when he felt and heard my despair he tried to take back his desire to break up. but i told him, it would be better if we went our ways. we were young and far from one another. but i still pined for him. my soul still bleed for him, even when i saw him years later, after i was married. i knew when i saw him his soul still needed mine. it was painful. we've since moved on but our love still lingers in the background. we know we still have a special place in each other's hearts. it doesn't hurt to see him anymore, but his new girlfriend doesn't like me....i wonder why? ;} sometimes though these dreams take me back to that time when we were together. the time i gave myself completely and how it changed my life forever after. before that i was never so timid or unsure of myself. i felt different and halved. =^..^=

11.6.07

pmdd and my version of crazy

so i've got the bad seed. yay. i knew something was wrong when everytime my menses came around i would want to kill myself. but now that i'm more educated on the subject and have multiple dr's appointments, i feel better. not to mention i'm bleeding enough to kill a small yak. my sister-in-law is an rn. she helped me pull a vitamin reg together to get me through the roughest times. i don't want to have to rely on serotoninhibators to get me by and god forbid end up dependent on them. so i've decided to add vitamins into my already organicly healthy lifestyle. damn, i really am a hippy. i never believed you, you know. in my early twenties i did consider myself a cyber-hippy, but that's a different post. so i'm sorry to have my blog absorb my depression and i don't want to bring anyone down, if i have another episode i'll try not to rip my blog a new one! thanks for reading. =^..^=

8.6.07

not in the mood

nothing else to say i guess. i don't want to do anything but stay in bed lately. i don't think i'm going to blog until i feel better. i don't want this negativity. =^..^=

2.6.07

dinner date

*le sigh
=^..^=

hnt owwie!!


check this out. i got this bruise from nailing the side of a desk at work. it took almost a year for the bruise to go away and i still have a dent in my leg. i think i lost muscle mass or it died or something! damn!!

music saves


i don't know what it is!! i can't get enough of those trombone solos! everytime i hear one in a song, said song becomes one of my favorites!! i just love it!! love that trombone solo! man oh man!

v-smile

dear carebears- what does caring mean? love-amy
this is the opening dialog for sage's v-smile carebear game.
just had to share.
hee-hee.
love you a.m.y
=^..^=

look carefully


the world's biggest chihuahua. if you can believe it. this is my brother's chihuahua fred. he has got to be the fattest, biggest, thickest chihuahua i have ever seen. of course he is so cute and sweet you are forced to love him but man! he is so big! we love you freddy! i know it doesn't sound too good but when he dies i'm going to sing that song "freddy's dead". yay curtis!

sage's 1st hnt



even though it isn't thursday! sage is over the top! she is too cute and always has a different pose for every picture. she is so sweet and funny. this is her, "we just moved into this house" pose! too cute! =^..^=

dream

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1.6.07

dragon reprise

awww hell. i must be the devil in a green dress! ;) i contacted the dragon again, she has been pretty nice as of late so i've tried to take advantage of that. after viewing the tracking this morning it seems the infamous dress has been returned to china yet again. she sent me an email saying she would refund my money once the package has been returned to her. i fell kinda bad because she made the dress to my specifications, sizes and all, and i would so love to see her work. so, being the confusing "can never make up my mind" bitch that i am, i suggested maybe working out over night shipping or two day shipping if it gets to her way prior to my event. we'll see how she swallows that one when she responds. i offered to even send her partial payment for the express delivery. i hope it gets back to her in time to express it to me for the expo. i hope she goes for that idea. at this point the dress better be absolutely perfect and breathtaking! we'll see. =^..^=